Saturday, August 13, 2016

Second chances

One of my most favorite talks ever is His grace is sufficient by Brad Wilcox. It was given at a byu devotional a few years ago but to me it still has one of the most powerful messages. We can be forgiven, no matter how far gone we think we are. Before I get into the talk let me first start by saying how grateful I am that through the atonement we are all granted second chances. President Monson once said, " One of God's greatest gifts to us is the joy of trying again. For no failure ever need be final." I know personally I have had my fair share of mistakes and have done things in my past that I’m not particularly proud of. There was a time not so long ago that I thought I couldn’t be forgiven for some of the things I had done but then I found the gospel and came to understand how wrong I was.
Anyways back to the talk. It opens with the story of a lady who did not understand what grace was. The speaker tells the lady that Christ paid our debt in full, not all but a few coins, he truly paid it all. All we are asked in return is to show faith in him , repent, make and keep covenants, receive the holy ghost, and endure to the end. That doesn’t seem to bad right? But for some people who don’t truly understand gods grace this can seem kind of impossible. So to help people better understand the speaker compares it to a child learning to play piano. The mom pays for the lessons and only asks for practice in return from the child. Sounds familiar right? Well, the child's practice shows gratitude for what the mom has done and the mom finds joy in seeing her gift used. If the child sees practice as being to hard maybe it's because they do not understand or see with their moms eyes how much better their life could be with practice. The purpose of practice is change. There are never just two options in learning music. It's not a difference between playing at Carnegie Hall or not playing at all. It's about playing the best you can and to just keep practicing. Growth, development, and change all take time. Just like with music, spiritual change is the same way.
None of us is perfect. We all sin and we all make mistakes. I  know that I am far from perfect and that I make mistakes everyday but thanks to the atonement I'm able to have another chance to try again and so are all of you. Many times people fall into the trap of thinking I messed up I’m not good enough anymore, or this is to hard. These people are being taken down into darkness but as Elder Stanfill said, "there is no darkness so dense, so menacing, or so difficult that it cannot be overcome by light." We all make mistakes but there is always a way back to heavenly father. Giving up should never be an option when we have something as wonderful as the atonement.
In October 2011 Elder Holland said, "whoever you are and whatever you have done, you can be forgiven. Every one of you young men can leave behind any transgression with which you may struggle. It is the miracle of forgiveness; it is the miracle of the atonement of the lord Jesus Christ." Now I know that this was directed towards the young men but I believe it applies to every one of us. And how great is that to hear! That we can be forgiven no matter what? To me that is the greatest gift we have ever been given. I’m far from perfect but I am still trying just like I hope all of you are still trying. Our mistakes don’t define us, they help us to learn but do not need to weigh us down. When we repent, through gods grace that weight is gone. Yes the memory remains but only so that we know never to make that same mistake again. We grow, learn, and move forward with heavenly father’s help. I am so great full that we have the atonement and that I was given a second  chance. My mistakes don’t define who I am. They are a part of my past but they’re not a part of me anymore.

Friday, August 12, 2016

True conversion

I read an article a while ago that said there are three types of converts. The first type is converted to the missionaries, they like having them around for fun and feed off of their spirit. I wish I could tell you that I don't know anyone like this but sadly I do. I think we all do. The second type of convert is converted to another church member. Much like the first kind this one feeds off of the other persons spirit as well. They never gain their own testimony and can often be easily offended by other church members and go inactive. My old ward used to tell me they thought this was me. They thought that I was feeding off of my best friend and was only there for her. They were wrong. Shortly after I was baptized she went inactive but I kept going to church every Sunday. I craved the spirit that I felt there. I strived to grow my testimony, I read scriptures and conference talks daily. A few months after I was baptized I went to the temple to do baptisms and I craved to go back as often as I could  I wanted my endowments. This leads me to the third type of convert, the kind that I believe I am and that we should all strive to be, the kind who is truly converted to the gospel. They have their own testimony and it's strong. They want to be a light to others. I actually had a very good friend of mine tell me after I was baptized that I was trying to change everyone around me. However, that wasn't true. I only wanted everyone around me to feel the same joy that I felt. To understand that with God everything is better. Your burdens are lighter, nothing seems impossible anymore. Through Christ all things are possible. No matter how terrible of a sin you think you have committed, you can be forgiven. All of us whether we are born and raised Mormons or are converts should strive to be that third type. To have a strong testimony and be a light to others in need. Never once have I been ashamed to say I am mormon. In fact I want to tell everyone I meet.
I had the glorious opportunity before I moved to sit through lessons with one of my friends and watch her get baptized. I saw the change in her as she went from being a miserable chain smoker, heavy drinker, with the mouth of a trucker. To the good person she is today. I saw her find true happiness. That to me was the most amazing feeling in the world. I don't understand why if there is a way for us to be truly 100% happy that people ignore it. So many people have judged me for the path I chose but I would never go back to my old life. I am a true convert and a deciple of Christ.