Overcoming darkness

When I was 13 my uncle was diagnosed with terminal cancer. He was the primary care giver for my grandpa, and with him now being ill my family left the caregiving responsibility to me. My grandpa made my life miserable and things got so bad that at one point I attempted to take my own life. This was when I was diagnosed with my depression. This has been an extremely difficult trial for me but one step at a time I am overcoming it. For anyone who doesn't understand depression, you feel sad all the time. Like your life doesn't have a purpose. For me, I couldn't see where my life was going. I thought I would never amount to anything. There are days that I still feel like this. However, since finding the gospel I now know that my life does have a purpose. Heavenly father never gives us a trial we can't overcome. I know that heavenly father is always by my side and if I am weak he will give me strength. I find joy now in knowing that I am never alone. Are there days that I still feel overwhelmed by my depression? yes. Are there days that I feel like I will never see light again? Of course there are, but I will not let that stop me. My depression is my trial. each of us is sent here to earth with something that sets us back and it is our ultimate trial. For some it is physical, for others it's emotional, and for some it is mental. These trials are given to us because heavenly father knows we can over come them. He gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. I'm not saying that my trial is the hardest there is because it's not but I am still a warrior. My message to anyone who feels like they don't matter or that they aren't worth it is that you do matter. I promise you that heavenly father knows your struggles and is trying to help. You simply have to open your heart to him and listen. My favorite scripture is Ether 12:27 and it reads, "And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them." I love this scripture because I know that I am weak. My depression makes me weak, but if I humble myself and ask heavenly father to help me and strengthen me he will make my weakness a strength. I have come to terms with my depression. Yes, I still struggle but now I share my struggle with others. I want them to know that they are not alone and that the gospel is there to help them. Heavenly father is there to help them. Don't ever give up, you are worth so much whether you know it or not.